"Bussie" Rides.

Buses. I've to get on them like ~10times (to n fro) a week. 1hr/trip. 10hours every wk. 40hours every month. 480hours every year. It's 5th sem now, not considering this sem, i've wasted 960hours taking a bus: SIM <--> HOME. Madness. If your maths is ok, u shd know that it's about 40days of my life, wasted, sitting in the bus. Doing nothing. (not tt i'm lazy, but i just can't do anything!)

Experiences I've had in the bus (that i can remem' of):
- Bus captains driving hell'a SLOW (cyclist by roadside seems to 'ZOOM' past)
- Bus captain fought/quarelled with passenger, stopping in the middle of the road (hell true)
- Noisy+Sweaty+Smelly school boys brushed you by. (u wished u didn't exist, or e other way round)
- Couple smooching
- Passengers shouting (considered a fight? i dunno man)
- Peeps putting baggages on the seat nxt to 'em (i do hope they 'Beep-ed' an ez-link for their BAG)
- Young man pretending to sleep when an old lady is struggling & balancing right before him. (heartless beast)
- Everybody refusing to move to e rear during peak timings. (sucks!)

It isn't alot of stuff mentioned, but it's mainly for some thoughts.
There ain't much things i could do on a bus ride. Basically 'stonning' is what i can think of. Alternatively, eyes fixed on the moving scenes outside of bus, mind thinking about other things else. Sober thoughts of course.

Taking a bus is like a motion to me:
You hail for that bus, get on, grab a seat nearest to you/stand till your legs are sore, press the bell, get off.

O, what a silly chore in life! This post reaches out to the hearts of those staying in the 'sub-urbs'. I feel for you...

YEC

Was just an observer. Then i was assigned to this Movie Event. Thou it doesnt seem too hard, but still, it's sth extra, on my mind. Can't stop thinking about it. I am responsible of getting the license and all, with all the waiting for reply. Damn Sian.
Now's no longer the Die Hard movie already. They changing it to Horror movies. Hopefully ppl will show support for it.
If not, I'll be one of the ppl who's in what you call
"DEEP SHIT".

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I wonder how's this thing that hun ask me to pay attention to - Legg Mason SEA Special SITS. Worth it? Super "Xim Tia" abt DWS China equity. Sian. Shd've held on. It's at $2.904 now. Wait for correction. But then again, wonder when correction will really come. What if it nv comes?

Bank almost empty already. Need to do some saving up man. If not, i'll possibly have to feed on grass, under this big blue sky. Endless worries. New term starts, comes along with everything. No income, and that's deadly mind you. I'm worried about sparing a thought for anything that comes by. Enough of that. Looking indifferent to everything that's happening around me, us. Seems indifferent. But e truth is, i do give a shit about what's happening all around. Thou that 'face' that i give most of the time.

Been reading this novel: For One More Day -- by Mitch Albom.
Not too bad. But i should say it's a little draggy and all, but overall, still ok. Ya should catch it someday when you're free.

"Happy go lucky" is my middle name, and that's a long one i should admit. I'm trying very hard to fall back on that, again. Cheerios!

Ignition!

Finally, i've decided to get over the driving thing. Nth big. Maybe i'll be more conscious of how i drive on roads in future, even aft i've gotten my license. Anw, I thought i angered Mr Yip by 'poking my nose into his privacy'. I stole pic from his hp. Haha! This seems soo long ago thou it's just last sem.
From left: YuPei,Jessie,Yating,Me!
(Not in pict: Mr Yip) - Ayah, Camera man lo.

Time passes quickly, before we know it, we're all in yr 3 already. Yr 1 seems like a wk ago. We saw each other thru all the way, for the best times and the worst. Hope our friendship will nv end!

Test 1 - Failed.

Damn sian. I failed my first driving test. Total of 42 demerit points. Hell to believe.
Let me show you how:
Parking - Fail to confirm safety (4)
Moving off - Insufficient acceleration (2)
Forward Driving - Fail to keep a safe following dist (6)
- Fail to slow down when approaching road hazards (6x2)
- Change lane abruptly (4)
- Fail to use appropriate gear (2)
- Cause other vehicles to slow down or take evasive action (8)
Braking - Fal to use engine brake @ Bend (4)

Ya, so if your maths is alright, it's a total of 42 f*ing pts. Stupid tester with that GL face. F* up man. If i knew, i should've bang into a tree, keep this stupid tester busy with some reports to do. Screwed up. I'm sorry, but he's such a -->Dumbfcuk.

Gang Hao

Btw, Gang Hao's Bday. 25th (Nah!!!) 24th! whahaha. I just simply love to pull his legs man. Such a fun dude.
Anw, Simon wore this tee:

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Man! I'm so sorry! Didn't realise the pictures will fall in such a layout! Erm, careless mistake! Hope you enjoyed the cake i bought for you! (your beloved 2nd 'Bor")

Finally

It's the last day at RHB. Half a day. Went driving revision, appt and met "Uncle Deon". Been meeting him ytd n today during lunch time. Cus he's working at e South Bridge branch. Anhyhow, we bought new tie. The place where Hun get his ties.
This's what Deon bought
Thought it looked pretty cool. It's a navy blue tie, with small flowered details(yellow colour). 100% silk. Imported from elsewhere. I particularly start to love such ties. Ties with stripes are kinda Passe already. Hmmm, or should i say it's the conventional type. But ties with flowery designs are in trend now, in this 'dot-com' era.

Anyhow,didn't do much in office today. Heh. Officially handing over everything to the perm staffs. Appreciate all the guidance i received at RHB during my 'stay'. Sure to miss everyone. Especially my beloved darling Dia-na! Haha! Cheong! I love to tease her, joke and laugh like mad with her. She's sorta "all i've got" at RHB. And i was willing to extend my stay there cus of her. I wanna keep her company. She's gonna be a capable lady in future. DIANA, your bday pressie: free 2% sales charge from me. (Whahaha) And this's me and her:

This is Nor, she is an operator at RHB. Super gregarious lady we've got here. She is a total madness! Cheeky and funny! I'm absolutely entertained by the way her face lits up whenever she has a cheeky idea up her sleeves..

Anw, Hun left for HK morning, just a short trip, but sure gonna miss him..

Loves.

You couldnt care less

Here i am, blogging away. when i shd be sleeping.
It's abt me again. I'm moody these days. Definately not PMS. (if tt's wat's you're thinkin abt)
I guess i just suck at rs. Yea.
All you'll ever need, they're always there for you.
Go ahead. I'm just a nobody. Busybody.
You should be sleeping soundly, peacefully.
Sometimes you're really a Jackass.
Feeling down-under, rock-bottom.
You remain ignorant.
I look out of the window, hoping to see GG.
Stood motionless for 30mins by the window. Nothing.



Only to realise:
You couldn't care less.

Wow!

Ever since the last time that i took note of, Henderson Asian Dividend Income fund has 'up-ed' by almost 60c! Gosh. But then again, the price is $20 over bucks. Where the hell can i get that sorta money. Madness. But atleast my Lion Cap has broke even. Heh. *Happy*

On tues, Hun actually came to pick me up from sch. I wasnt aware of it, and got on the bus with my friends. Just as i got up the bus, my phone rang. Honey. He's actually at sch's atrium! Gosh. Luckily i picked up the damn phone. Haha. If not it's gonna be a 'windy' ride for him from S'goon Gardens to Bt Timah and back to AMK again. Haha. We went Mac at a drive thru. Had some Hot fudge Sundae. His all time favourite.


Satisfied smile on him.

Loves.

On my own

I promise to be more on my own.
Take care of my own things.
Less dependent.

Jessie's Melody.

Went to Jessie's Housewarming ytd. Had dinner over at her new place. Pretty place. Thou a little small, but it's rather cosy. Guess if dad n mom really move to a smaller place, we all have to start getting use to it. Less spacious = cannot keep buying things = Have to keep tidying....

Anyhow, Diana must be slogging her efforts out to call my call-lists. Reno, Edu, Hsing, Term loans. And WORST of all, PNPL! I know how that sucks. Thinking of getting her sth before we leave RHB. (still thinkin)

It feels rather good on a start of new term. No need to rush for trains, squeeze with the workin cls n the morning to the city.

On a lighter note, very tempted to go into DWS again. hmmm.......
This's my Investment "advisor" -- Calvin.
I stole this pic from his bloggie.

Silly me, again.

Terrible day.
Maybe not the whole day, but the last part of it.
Hun forgot abt my appt totally. He called me on his way home(bishan already), when i'm almost done.
I'm sad not only he forgot. He didnt offer me a ride home.
Am i too demanding here? I dunno. Cus i would if i were him. Even if it means to make a big round. I understand that it's beta nowadays already, cus he'd forget our dates at first.
He promised when i'm not feeling good, he'll coax me. But he didn't. Well he did try, maybe just not too obvious. Almost 9 already, walking alone to Raffles MRT feels lonely.
He said sorry. But didn't quite make up for anything. He just sounded cold like watever. i asked if he's gonna turn in at 10.10pm, he said ok. We hung up. But what the F*, it was only 10.10pm. i called back. Tried to sound nice and asked if we could speak a little longer. I feel so much like i'm fighting for a chance to speak with my boyfriend.
Feeling pathetic.
If only he is less important to me, perhaps life would've been easier. Won't have a chance to pity myself.
And i hoped something would abruptly pops up in his mind to tell him to take some time to read his darling's blog. So much so that he would know wth is going thru her mind. But because i'm THIS sure, that's why i'm blogging this post right now.

F* up day.

Sth to share.

'Ve got nice songs to share with everyone. It's a friend's wedding march-in song. Pretty nice. I loved this at first time!



And for this, it's a song that hun sang me to sleep on a night when i wasn't feeling too good and couldnt fall asleep. He sang almost as well.



Plus, thou this's been a vid quite sometime ago, still thought it's a pretty cool one. Will slowly introduce u peeps my genre of music. Enjoy this one by: Fall Out Boys! - This Ain't A Scene, Its An Arm Race.
Dudes. It's been taken down. Interested parties pls refer to: http://shamzrapz.imeem.com/video/LeFXJw0w/fall_out_boy_this_aint_a_sceneits_an_arms_race/

Life is not a competition.

We do live in a highly competitive society and most of us have been taught that in order to survive, we have to be bigger, better, stronger, more good-looking, more popular, get better grades, close bigger deals. This culture of competition comes from the perception of scarcity of resources.

You learn to see others as competitors, as enemies even. You learn to believe that in order to survive, you have to be better, stronger, prettier, taller, skinnier, lick more boots, polish more apples, whatever. You become suspicious and self-serving and live in fear of any loss or defeat.

Yes there are races in life that we should strive to win, but life itself is not a race. Sometimes, it's ok, essential even that we stop running, take a deep breath and take in the view around us. What are we missing in our neverending quest to win? Victory is sweet but it shouldn't come at the price of withholding love or causing hurt.

There's nothing wrong with wanting to win. But wanting to win doesn't mean refusing to lose. When we strive to always outdo others, we begin to attach ourselves to our vanity, our pride. Competition can be healthy but don't let it blind you to the other more important things and people in your life.
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Several words that i highlighted, to remind people around me and of course, myself. Competition is like a friendly match. Never losing heart over matches you've lost. Look forward, take it as it comes. Yeah~!

Loves.

Thoughts on L.O.V.E.

If you love someone who doesn't love you in return, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. You are not undesirable. The other person is judging you based on his or her own limited perceptions, experiences and values, and you should never use that as a benchmark. What matters is how you see yourself.

Conversely, if someone loves you but you don't love him or her, do not take advantage. Some of us may think "It's just harmless fun" or "as long as I don't make a verbal commitment, it should be alright". If someone loves you or thinks he or she loves you, the feeling will probably grow more intense with time. If you accept their affection without making it clear that you will never be on the same level romantically, then you're only encouraging their feelings for you. Love is a gift, and if you know you can't accept it, refuse it gently.

If your partner chooses to leave a relationship that seems perfectly fine to you, do not assign blame. If your partner is resolute and has made it clear that it's not going to work out, do not push. Do not try to look for reasons. In such cases, it's probably better to let it go because pushing is likely to hurt you even more. You'll drive yourself insane wondering "why?"

More importantly, do not think less of yourself. It's usually the blameless party who bears the torment of love's departure. You did nothing wrong and there was nothing you could've done to prevent the passage of love. It passes us like a leaf on the breeze which may or may not choose to settle. The real reason is not something you can know.

Love can sometimes move in mysterious paths and if you're unable to let love go its way, you'll only end up like the wasp which dies of exhaustion while trying to break out through a closed window.

Someone once said that many lovers get it wrong by seeing their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love. They then begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

The world is a complex and immense place, more so than you might imagine. In the wake of a failed relationship, human beings have the tendency to make the world collapse into a little box, in which no or few opportunities exist. They draw the curtains when they really should be letting the light in.

But if you keep your heart open and learn to give love rather than expect it to come to you, love will happen for you again.
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Above is a pretty cool read-up i got from Mediacorp radio 93.8 - A Slice of Life. Maybe it's not a bad thing to give it some thoughts aft reading it. :)

Loves.

Palm T|X Handheld for sale!

Hmmm.. Just posted my ebay item for sale, Palm TX Handheld.
Just if you're interested:
http://cgi.ebay.com.sg/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=230148148647

Went to town, Hun had lunch at a "Kopitiam" in Parkmall:



Caught him on screen. Dear was always most harmless when he's eating, be it arguing or fighting. Sure lose. Whaha. Anw, he's supposed to be my precious, but somehow, i still bully him, so much.

Actually, he was forced to.. :P