Please Go.

I hope it isn't too ridiculous, too demanding to want him to stay for me, wait for me. He's going overseas again this nov, with Deon (probability w his gf too). Ever since May, he'd went Madrid n HongKong. Coming november going KL (watch tennis), nxt year beginning going Melbourne maybe to catch the Australia open (tennis match), then to Switzerland if he manage to hit his target. All of these, I can't be involved.

I know it's silly to feel sad over another's anxiety and excitement. Each time he went, he'll tell me how he'd wished i could be there with him that he'll enjoy more. But each time he will have sth else without me in the plan, cus he knows dad n mom wouldn't allow me to go until i've graduated. I feel so selfish to be asking him to wait for me, till i can finally go with him. I was just wondering if hun had really thought abt going another time, with me.

Maybe i really shouldn't even think abt holding him back. He'd worked hard, so he deserves to go on each trip. I really couldnt explain y i'm feeling this way. So selfish.

Maybe i should say, "Please go.."