Freaking First Day

My new boss, on the surface look nice. But barely spoke to her over 10 sentence, by overhearing my conversation with another guy, say i sounded aggressive. Not someone who is customer oriented. She told me if i don't feel good about the job i am free to leave. I was like ................. Argh.

What does she knows. Barely half a day, that's what she told me. I was taken aback with her comment. Zooming thoughts inside my mind. As i spoke, tears welled-up in my eyes. I controlled harder than i could to prevent tears from falling. I was really sad. Really. Thou she hurt me terribly, i didnt think she was really a bad person. Perhaps just someone st.forward. I had to force my smile when i was replying her statements, or rebuttals.

The worst scenario was to leave the room, clear the mess inside my head and pretended as though nothing has happened. It was the hardest thing to do. Sigh. Feel like crying, but can't cry. That sort of feeling sucks. I felt so alone, in that office so strange. Still had to put up a strong front. I badly wanted to go to the toilet immediately after we talked. But i didnt' wanna head in the same direction as her, so i went back to my seat. Worst, i was sharing a place with another peer. I hope he didnt see through me. I smiled as happily as i could.

After work, i dragged my feet home. Together with that dampen mood.
I really feel like ditching that freaking place for all i care. But i won't, i have to prove her wrong. I will stay and prove that i'm up to the job.