It's a new year, baby.

It has all passed. The days, the weeks and finally the year, 2007. So much has been said and done, un-said and un-done. Well, let's hope it'll all fall in place like it should've this coming new year.

Everyone talks about new year resolutions, new year wishes yada-yada. This year, i don't have any, at all. I don't believe in hoping anymore, i don't believe in wishing anymore. I thought other than hardwork by yourself, nothing in this world could be guaranteed.

I've faced rejections, failures, unhappiness, un-blessings all year round. Last year had been tough, despite the resolutions and wishes i made while the clock strikes 12 on new year day. It's silly, really. You made those resolutions, forcing yourself to keep to it, still by mid-year, 3/4 the list is not completed. By the 3rd quarter of the year, you've forgotten all about those silly things you've listed at the beginning of the year. So, it boils down to "Heyyy baby, what 'de-resolutions' have you thougth of, this time?"

I seriously don't agree with the majority, cus i guess i'm within those minorities. Like to think and behave in a different way. Unusual way you may wanna call it. It's wierd, i know. I keep things to myself, many times. Cus it makes no difference for you to tell another 'somebody' and bloody hope that things will be better. It will NOT, face it. In this world, you only have yourself to count on, like literally. So, for those who don't agree with me, it's just too bad. I know what i'm doing and if you support me, tell me. If not, screw it. Call me depressed if you like. I'm learning not to care. I don't wanna be affected anymore, like with what you see me as and what you think of me. I am who I am.

To baby,
It's ok if things are not going the way we would've wanted it to be. Like a serene scene and beautiful backdrop back there. It's about us. I understand what kinda dejections you're facing because of me. I'm terribly sorry about it. I haven't thought about you as an under-achiever, never. You are so good already. There's nothin much more i can pick on and be fussy about. I mean, what more can i ask for? I'm not confused, in fact clearer than ever, that who's making those unfair judgement and who's not.

Ever since we met, you changed those bad habbits. You took on better ones. You showed me how serious you are in us. Thou you're decade older, you never showed you were. You listened to what i've to say and i appreciate them. We're born in this era: dot-com era, not the spider-catching 'kampong' era. We have liberal thoughts while retaining those traditional values as much as we can.

Thank you for being my soul-mate, my best friend, my love. I know there're more and more challenges up ahead of us, and we'll cross them one by one. You promised that you'll love me for a long, long time.

Love, lin.

As for new year resolutions, i'll give it a miss.
A happy new year to all!