Whatever

Sooo busy.
Busy with Kacie's stuff.

Recieved comments from friends and collaterals.
Guess it'll do us more good than harm.
Most importantly is taking it in our stride. I'm sure it'll be ok as time goes.

Things ain't going too well.
Not too well i guess. But ok.

I'm pretty much living in my own world, planning my own agenda.
Like my mom always said, i only know how to plan my own time.
Maybe she feels that i haven't been home very often.

But the thing is when i'm home, they're not.

Anyhow, I've planned to find a job and start in June.
But till date, i haven't found any. It's kinda stressful.
When everyone around you is asking whether you've:
-sent out your resume
-found a job
or
-still hunting for one
My option? Simply the 3rd.

It's a lousy feeling. Like out in the social world.
Nobody wants me or will need me in anyway.
Suck.

I just wanna get started with sth.
Friends around me are either continuing with their current 'part-times' or found sth good, and are looking forward to signing the contract.

But look at me, i'm still sitting on this bloody chair, lookin out on the web for sth that looks: Not bad.
Far from being well.
Kacie's Love, we ain't even sure if it'll ever work out.
We're just doing out best.
I hope mom understands, just so she won't direct hurtful words at me.
She's kinda pressurizing sometimes, no, most times.
She makes me feel as thou i'm worthless at home.
The only one who's bumming around. Yea, maybe that's a fact.

Sigh.

Whatever.
It doesn't really matter much in 2+ years time.

Signs off,
Lin.