Baby-Sit me

When i'm writing this blog, i can still feel the heartache.

We had a tiff last night. I wanted to tell him that i needed his attention, his care and concern. But instead, i told him that he neglected me. He wasn't too happy abt it. He told me that he sometimes feel like he's baby-sitting me. WTH. I dunno y he made such a comment. He won't say wat he doesn't feel. So i guess it's true. He just bombarded me with the fact that we're yrs apart. For a moment, i felt so lost. He didn't lose his temper or anything, but he didnt had to be that harsh. That comment is still ringing in my ears. I just cant understand y he can feel like one when he isn't even one.

All i needed was someone to show that he care for me, not just contacting me for the sake of it, or when he feels like it. When ever he called, he'll rattle on abt his work. Ask me how i'm doing, but as a matter of fact, i dunno how i can describe to him over the phone many times. I don't need him to understand everything that i'm facing, all i need is his care. I needed someone to tell me how much he loves me and so on. His msgs are forever that curt and short. Length barely enuf to make up into one full sentence.

I don't mind going to the doctor with hm,
I don't mind catchin his favourite movie with him,
I don't mind shopping for his clothes with him,
I don't even mind not doing anything with him.
It's the quality of time that matters.
My boyfriend made me feel so lousy of myself. Mayb i'm just the way he's described.