One Fateful Day

Today is such a bad bad bad day.

Put on my formal wear,
Slipped on my heels,
Happily headed for school.
Reached the bus stop, sat down to catch my breath.
Felt my bag's pocket, "Shirks! forgot abt my PHONE!"

Hurriedly walked back home again,
Got my phone and walked back to bus stop.
-Sweating like a dog-

Finally got on bus aft 10 mins of waiting,
sat down.
Felt dripping on my ankles...
"Damn. It came from my bag."
SIGG wasnt' capped properly,
Half-filled bottle went empty.
My bag looked like an "Underwater world"
-Just that there're no fishes"

Told T-Rex,
He was so curt with his replies,
asked me not to be too affected by it.
FULLSTOP.
"What was i thinkin?"
I thought i wasnt being cared for.

In the evening, Ting and i went to get dinner for Ignitions.
Brought my SIGG along to get it filled.
After some time after dinner, wanted to reach for my SIGG,
Only realised that it's missing.
Searched high and low for it. But cant' find. Everyone sort of hunted for it.
I was lookin everywhere frantically for it. I rushed back to cafeteria to look for it.
Nope, couldnt find. And canteen was almost closing. i felt so anxious.
Untill Jess went to look for it with me in the canteen, i finally found it.
More than elated to hold it in my hands again. I even felt like crying to get it back.
Its then i realised, this 'SIGG' is important to me. I can't seem to loose it.

Project ended late. Till 11 i guess,but i went off at 10.30pm+
I really wished T-Rex would gimme a lift. But he didnt offer. at all.
How can i even request that of him? I jolly well knows he's had a long day at work.
Even if he'd offered, i would have turned him down.
I guess all that i wanted was to know that he had the intention of wanting to drive me back.
He did ask me to take a cabbie home, and he'll reimburse me. But i didnt want to take cab.
From Bkt Timah to home will not be cheap. Anyway, i'll be ok taking bus. Nothing can happen.
Then he sounded pissed over the phone, and went to bed shortly aft we hung up.
I wonder how can he be so insensitive.. I merely wanted to know that he will want to give his gf a lift back. (even thou it'd be a long trip) And as his gf, if he offered, i would have turned it down to know that he's tired and need more rest. But somehow, i thought it is the thoughts that count.
I wonder why i feel the heartache when i assured him that i couldn't care less.
Sometimes i wonder if i'm doing enough for the R/S in the first place.
Am i comparing? Cus Boon will drive me back no matter how far, how inconvenient, how long that journey is.

-stupid me-